who will ever help me....

feel so helpless....

2day was a rainy day...i think maybe the clouds are crying for me too...i slept pretty well last nite, bt i aspected that i couldn't sleep for the whole nite, because of the incident tat i go thru last nite, those pictures abt the accident juz keep appearing in my mind like some sort of movie are playing in my mind. i wanted to stop it, bt i cant, the more u think the more pictures are coming out in nowhere...scary...my car was badly damaged, and hv been sent to the workshop. sometimes i'll think back everything tat i hv been go thru, nothing will be completely successful in the end. it's because tat i am too stupid or am i a freak that cant even do a thing in a successfull way, i duwan to let those ppl who care abt me to worry abt me. i wanna show them tat i can do it by myself. bt i dunno y those bad things like to appear infront of me, and sumtimes i dun even noe how to slove it. i am so afraid to go to campus 2day, because i scared those ppl there will laugh at me, laugh at me because i am totally a dumb freak, and dun even noe how drive. i feel so helpless...bt wat to do life need to keep goin like usual. so keep goin, I'll make it rite in one day, i believe in tat...