BE WHO U ARE!!!

2day its still a rainy day, kinda a cold at nite....its' indirectly reflected me deeply in my heart, my heart felt cold as well... i got no idea y this will happen..maybe i am having a heart disease..lolx

did u guys out there ever believe in fairy tales, or all of u think that there are no fairy tales existed in this world... for example when a prince and princess met each other then get married and live happily ever after... how ridiculous can it be....i dun think this dumb thing will ever happend in this earth...

why such will not ever exist in this world, maybe human are greedy, we always want more than we expect in our live..dun u think so? when we get a good wife or husband, then when we met sumone better than he or she, we may wanna grab it...bt sumtimes some circumstances or consequences juz wont let us do tat, because we still nid to be responsible for watever we do in our precious lifetime. everyday, every moment, every second somethings are happening around us, so always bare in mind we nid to live for ourself not leaving for others...we are who we are...make things or dreams come true in our life and learn how to create possibility in our life....

who will ever help me....

feel so helpless....

2day was a rainy day...i think maybe the clouds are crying for me too...i slept pretty well last nite, bt i aspected that i couldn't sleep for the whole nite, because of the incident tat i go thru last nite, those pictures abt the accident juz keep appearing in my mind like some sort of movie are playing in my mind. i wanted to stop it, bt i cant, the more u think the more pictures are coming out in nowhere...scary...my car was badly damaged, and hv been sent to the workshop. sometimes i'll think back everything tat i hv been go thru, nothing will be completely successful in the end. it's because tat i am too stupid or am i a freak that cant even do a thing in a successfull way, i duwan to let those ppl who care abt me to worry abt me. i wanna show them tat i can do it by myself. bt i dunno y those bad things like to appear infront of me, and sumtimes i dun even noe how to slove it. i am so afraid to go to campus 2day, because i scared those ppl there will laugh at me, laugh at me because i am totally a dumb freak, and dun even noe how drive. i feel so helpless...bt wat to do life need to keep goin like usual. so keep goin, I'll make it rite in one day, i believe in tat...

WAT A DAY!!!

WAT!!!2day is the scariest day in my life, OMG I juz faced an accident.I crash with a motorcycle.How can this ever happen to me?In that time i was so terrified and my brain was empty,I duno wat to do...the first person tat i thought of was my dad.I really wished he was here and settle everything for me.because i am juz 19 years old, and this is the first time i faced this kind of prob. 5 minutes later, all the ppl were surrounding me, telling me wat to do, bt i cant find a person that i know, all of them seem like a stranger to me. I am still in P license, i am afraid tat my license will be "gantung" by the traffic police. i called my best friend yee ying for 3 times, bt she never answered the call. in order to make my heart beat go slower i call my hsemate, Alan. luckily he did answer the phone call, when i c him and keat soon reach to the accident scene, i feel like "oh finally sumone i know is here". after tat, yee ying called me, and i tell everything to her, she rush to the accident scene. when i saw her, the first thing i do was run up to her and hold her hand tightly, because she was one of my best friend in kampar that i know her since form 2, we were best friends for 6 years until now. after that i went to the police station to report the accident and tell the police wat happen.it takes me for about 1 and half hour, and luckily the motorcyclist was fine, juz some small injuries on his leg. then at last i received a RM 300 saman, i still having my P license.*phew* i sure gonna be the most famous person in UTAR now.But i duwan to b the famous person in this way. it's so embarassing, how am i goin to faced those ppl in UTAR. OH MY GOD....help me....i really hope i could turn back time, so everything wont gonna happen. But everything is over, i will juz take this as an experience. i'll drive safely next time. T.T

bye bye holidays!!

tonite might be the longest nite to me...because it's the last day of my sem break, which means i nid to get my ass bek to campus tomorrow..wat the heck...and my class is in 9am in the morning...*sigh* nid to wake up so early, it's 1 of the hardest thing for me..n the damn ulcer in my mouth are killing...i wonder when it will recover,and no nid to eat porridge anymore...and i nid to drink herbal tea everyday...lolx *bitter* i goin to face 2 most tough subject next sem (for me only) financial and cost accounting...wat can i say, my brain will not fuctioning well when i'm facing with those numbers and equation...and sumore it's only 7 weeks, mid term falls on
week 5, kill me man....whoever out there know how to cure this kind of sickness pls kindly contact me..should i sleep now bt i'm not sleepy yet...wat can i do?

my first time....

HEY!!dun think anything bad abt my title k...lolx..i put this title is because this is my first time writting a blog...last time i used to laugh at my friends by wasting their time writting a blog...XD bt wat i think last time was totally wrong..

skol starts 2molo..wat to do..should i juz feel happy,excited,or sad...i starting to miss my family and friends at kk..sometime i'll asked myself it's a brilliant decision by choosing UTAR and nid to leave my friends and family members apart...tats like so far from them...when i saw them, a weird feeling juz appear nowhere in my body,those juz cant describe by using a single word...or maybe i juz to afraid to be alone, i hate the feeling of loneliness, when i nid someone to support or help me thru sumthing, i always hope there are sumone by my side.. but from now on i nid to be independent cuz i'm a guy...i cant juz depend on ppl or friends..nid to get used how to spent my precious time when i'm alone..HOHO...at last i still nid to say i mizz u guys so much..there are no distance between all of us...u guys will always in my heart....