frustrated...

hmm.. i always ask myself, am i juz too bad or am i just not good enough? wat i do always doesn't meet your requirements. but i just follow what you told me to do. just got a feedback from you today, and it is quite hurt deep inside me. but i will always take this a lesson, everyone learn from lesson right. when there are mistakes, there are space to improve. Am i just slow learner,i hv work for almost 9 months now, and i still do mistakes sometimes. my superior treat me like a trainee, watever i do she wants to read thru first, only allow me to send it out. and she rather ask my coll bek to help her, instead of calling me bek, and i am just in Genting, but my coll is at penang. WTH.... ok i have enough of these. i am jus too afraid and tend to think too much when doing something. tomorrow onwards i am going change, a whole new me.. doing things logically, more details, voice up to sumthing that i think is not right, be brave. they are just human.. Ordinary Human Being like me and u.. nothing special about them, oh there is sumthing different in them, they have more experiences than me.. so wat!!! STILL HUMAN... NEH NEH NEH.. i dun believe with my brain and thought will not be as capable as her.. screw her man!! she is my superior so wat.. i dun care, i will just do my job, being who i am.. btw i really need to thanks her for teaching me so many things, but she is like putting another her in me, please i have my way of doing things and u have ur own.. i am not u... look at the mirror we are different. maybe u are way too confident sometimes and speak like some "people". i will bear with it, because that is u... but i will work in my own way. u like it or not, i am not going to be u!! Dumb ASS... ok i am better rite now.. say hello to new me tomorrow!! ya bitch!!!

After abandoning this blog for so long, today I suddenly feel of updating it. It has been quite sometimes, after my last updates.. I almost forgot that I hv a blog that I used to write last time. I hv being into another phase of my life now, and it has been almost a year now. This working life is so so much different as compared to my study life. Life in uni are much much more easier.. all I nid to do everyday is wake up on time n get into the class n get the damn attendance sign. Tat's it! When it is raining, I can always choose to skip class . When we are tired of studying me and my classmates can always drive to ipoh and have a great dinner or maybe blowing water with one and another. Life are Juz great that time. But one thing abt human is, we are growing everyday. And we will get always experiencing different thing in our life. Now I am experiencing the whole new phase in my life, which is working life. In this working everything seems to b so complicated. First step in thisevent industry is not easy.I always tot that I am a quite adaptive kind of person. But the fact is I am not, until now I am still doubting myself am i suitable in this field and this job. Manager does'nt seems to like me, maybe is my attitude I guess. But I born this way, the attitude like me, does'nt mean that I cabt work or perform. Why she always tend to judge the book with its cover. I really don't understand. But no worries I a still hanging on. And never give up. In this whole new phase, there are so many things to learn.. learn to b more concious, learn to be more details in everything. Learning learning and learning... I will never give up!! U want to have 2 I give u 2....

keep holding on...

Maybe it hang for a reason.. everything happen for a reason.. Stop comparing n complaining and just do it. Okey!! Keep hanging on!!! After this it will b a brand new beginning...